I cannot wait to share this race report with you! This was my first year doing the Nav-e-Sink or Swim 1.2 mile open water swim competition in Rumson NJ. Last year, when I was completely new to swimming, I remember thinking that there would never be a day when I (ME) could swim 1.2 miles...in open water. But here I was. Getting ready for my first ever 1.2 mile swim competition.
I signed up for the race last minute. My friend Mollie and Adele were doing it, so I decided to be a follower (not a leader) and give it a try. After hitting the submit button, I regretted my decision instantly. What was I thinking??? I'll tell you what I was thinking..."that's some cool looking 10th anniversary medal they're giving out". Yeah, this isn't the first time I've signed up for a race because of a cool looking medal.
PACKET PICKUP
Tom and I took a ride down to Victory Park in Rumson NJ the evening before the race. I picked up our race packets and tried not to get myself worked up over the swim. But yeah, I admit it, I was really nervous. I even had a dream that I kept going under water and popping back up again and Adele kept telling me that everything would be ok. As I'm sure you can guess, I didn't get the best nights sleep.
RACE DAY
The participant list looked long and once again, I was worried about parking. Eh hem, story of my life. We were out the door at 5:00 am and arrived at Victory Park at 6:15. The sun was coming up and the sky looked beautiful. The buoys were out and the course was set.
We laid our towels on the lawn (the smart people brought picnic blankets) and hung out together. At 7:00 am I decided to go for an easy 10 minute run. I just needed to be alone and shake off the nervousness. By the time I got back Mollie and Adele were in their wetsuits and ready to go. The air temperature was in low 50's (as in cold) and the water temperature was about 61 degrees (as in cold). It was a bit windy and the conditions caused the water to be choppy. I was having major second thoughts about this.
The race began with the 1.2 mile swimmers followed by the 2.4 mile swimmers at 8:00 am. The first wave (1.2 mile Age Group Men) lined up on the shore. The horn blew at 7:30 am sharp, and off they went into the cold, murky Navesink river. Next it was our turn. Nearly 200 women lined up and at 7:38 am, the horn went off. I stayed at the very back of the pack and let them all go in. Myself and 6 other women were the last to get in. Three minutes later, the 1.2 mile Buddy Heat would follow and at 8:00 am the 2.4 mile swimmers would get in. That river was going to get crowded pretty soon.
THE COURSE
I got in and decided to see if I could put my head down and swim. Nope. It was dark and murky and I had that horrible feeling in my chest. I took a few strokes with my head up then put my face into the water again. Nope. Still too dark and murky. As I swam with my head up, I heard a woman yelling for a lifeguard. A group of us tried to get a lifeguards attention. She was panicked and wanted to get out of the water. Slowly she calmed down and decided to see if she could continue. Meanwhile, the clock was ticking.
The first buoy was located at the corner of a dock that we had to swim around. I noticed most of the women around me were either doing a slow breaststroke, floating on their back, or bobbing and procrastinating. It felt crowded around the dock and I felt uncomfortable with the whole scene. I decided it was time to beat it out there, so I put my face in the water and swam freestyle. I found a jolt of confidence and decided at that moment that I wasn't going to stop swimming until the end.
I turned the dock and entered into a cove-like area heading upstream. It wasn't really difficult swimming upstream because the cove seemed to keep the current to a minimum. I *believed* that when I made it to the turn around buoy I would be heading downstream, thus having the current at my back. I didn't know how wrong my *belief* was.
Along with the choppy water, I felt these random waves but I wasn't sure where they were coming from. And then I realized the waves were caused by boats going down the river. Several times I tried to take in air and got a mouth full of water instead. Now add waves to that and it felt a bit surreal and insane. "Keep calm and think about technique" was what I kept telling myself. I swam along going buoy to buoy upstream without stopping. If a wave lifted me up, I stayed relaxed and went with it. If I got a mouth full of water, I spit it out and hoped for air on the next go around.
FINALLY I arrived at the green turn buoy. I swam around the buoy and noticed a few women had stopped for a break. Apparently the water was really shallow there, so you could stand up if you wanted to. Nope, I'm not stopping now.
After turning the buoy I discovered what was in store for the rest of the swim "downstream". I didn't know it at first but the Navesink river dumps into the ocean, and the ocean was pushing the current up against us. Essentially we were swimming downstream, against the current. Like an oxymoron. To boot, the sun was on the horizon directly in front of us so sighting was very limited, at best. Luckily I wore my polarized goggles which cut the glare down a bit. I just kept swimming but wasn't sure if I was making progress. It felt as though I was swimming and not getting anywhere.
When I made it to the first green buoy I was relieved to know that I was actually making progress. There was a bridge up ahead and since I couldn't see much because of the sun I decided to aim for the bridge. Oh look, another green buoy! I just kept swimming. There were swimmers all around me but I realized everyone wanted their own space. Eventually I made it to green buoy #3, and I just kept swimming. I saw a man taking a break for a moment and some lifeguards in a rowing boat off to the side. What I thought about during the swim? I still don't remember.
I passed green buoy #4, and just kept swimming. "Aim for the bridge and look for the yellow buoy". Finally, there it was in all it's glory! Shining at me like a beacon in the sunlight. The yellow turn buoy where you begin your swim back towards shore. I was so happy at this point, that I kicked it into a higher gear (for me). I swung those arms and kicked those legs and just kept going until I reached the shore. When the water was about calf high I stood up and began running out of the river. As I ran towards the finish line, another woman started running as well. We both sprinted to the finish line together. My finish time was 46:09.
I received my beautiful finishers medal and felt elated at how well I had done considering everything I was up against. Wind, cold weather, cold water, I'm a head case, mass swim start, choppy water, waves, flailing arms, flailing legs, people needing lifeguards, nasty current, and water that was black as ink at times. In fact, our faces were covered with a black soot when we got out. What did we swim in? I have NO idea, nor do I want to know. Its too late now.
CLOSING THOUGHTS
With everything that I went through, I cannot wait to do this race again!!! Yes, it was that great! I'm still in a state of disbelief that I (ME) conquered this. Will I do the 2.4 mile swim next year? I doubt it, but hey who knows. Obviously a lot can happen between now and then. I think about all of the things that have happened between last year and this year. But you know what? I'll worry about it when the time comes...next year.
Tuesday, May 26, 2015
Tuesday, May 19, 2015
AIRBNB BROOKLYN HALF RACE REPORT 2015
Well, another Brooklyn Half goes down in the history books. Just like last year, I still love this race. But just like last year, the logistics of it still suck! The whole packet pickup for this race is a real downer. But anyway here goes:
Packet Pickup:
Packet Pickup was at Pier 2 in Brooklyn. Same place as last year, only this year it wasn't raining outside, so that was one positive. The traffic to get there? Just as awful as last year! Between the construction in Staten Island and the never ending bumper to bumper traffic in Brooklyn, it's enough to give you heart failure.
This year we found a parking garage about 1/2 mile away from the pier and walked over to the expo. The expo was small and included New Balance and other small vendors. Our race shirts were really nice this year. Black tech shirts with the Brooklyn Half logo. Since there wasn't much happening at the expo, we got our gear and made our way back to the car. Before leaving Brooklyn, Tom found a subway station and pre-purchased metro cards for Saturdays race.
Race Day:
Since my brother and niece were also running the Brooklyn Half, Tom and I had to leave New Jersey extra early to meet them in Staten Island. We woke up at 2:45 am and were out of the house by 3:40. We arrived at my brothers house by 4:30 am and were on our way to Coney Island by 4:50. The first wave of runners was scheduled to start at 7:00 am and the second wave was scheduled to start at 7:45 am. With over 26,000 runners, the parking lot fills up really fast so we wanted to be there as early as possible.
We parked the car at the Coney Island Aquarium and walked across the street to catch the Q train to Prospect Park. The subway arrived within 10 minutes and a huge group of runners got on board. We exited at the Prospect Park platform and made our way to the corrals which were set up near the Brooklyn Museum. Tom and I were in the first start wave but we decided to drop back to the first corral (corral 20) in wave 2. Once again NYRR had a million porta potties at the start line and I heard people commenting how great it is that they had that many toilets. The weather was cloudy and humid with some darker clouds on the horizon. It was difficult to tell whether or not it was going to rain on us. It felt like a 50/50 shot at that point.
We watched the first wave of runners take off and it was about 25 minutes before all of the runners cleared out. The race officials moved wave 2 up to the starting line, but we still had to wait another 20 minutes before it was our turn to go. At 7:45, the horn blew and we were off and running.
Running The Brooklyn Half:
We made our way down Washington Avenue to head towards Grand Army Plaza. I didn't notice this last year but the road heading towards the plaza has a slight upward grade and my legs felt it this year. I looked down at my watch and noticed I was running a 7:04 pace. Needless to say, I threw the brakes on immediately. We looped the statue at Grand Army Plaza and headed towards Prospect Park.
This year running through Prospect Park didn't feel as long or as hard as it did last year. I don't know why, but Prospect Park felt a bit shorter and easier to me. Trust me this is all in my head because the course was exactly the same this year as it was last year. Prospect Park is a bit hilly and you meet the longest climb at mile 5. I remembered this hill from last year and knew that I just needed to make it over the hill before my race could really begin. And then I felt a few rain drops. It felt really cool and refreshing at first, but the rain started picking up. Suddenly it was pouring on us. I noticed my body temperature cool down immediately and I decided to see if I could push myself a bit harder to take advantage of the cooling rain.
After exiting Prospect Park we headed towards Ocean Parkway. I tried to avoid the biggest puddles, but that was impossible. It just was what it was. Once I was on Ocean Parkway the rain stopped and I felt as though I was in a groove with my pace. The skies were cloudy but I'm not complaining because there's very little shade along Ocean Parkway. And sunshine is my kryptonite. NYRR set up water and Gatorade stations at every mile marker along Ocean Parkway. As always the volunteers were spectacular! Another reason why I love running this race.
There were a couple of minor grades on Ocean Parkway, but for the most part it's a straight shot to the Coney Island Boardwalk and the finish line. "Here come all the sexy runners", "Are you walking? There's no walking on MY corner", "Hurry up, Nathans is almost out of hot dogs". The comments and signs along the way made me laugh.
Every time I looked down at my watch, I noticed my pace was in the 7:43 to 7:45 range. I kept pushing myself the best that I could to hold that pace. One woman said "that's it, just keep running that nice easy pace". I wanted to strangle her because it did not feel like a nice easy pace!
I got to the end of Ocean Parkway and followed the runners towards the Coney Island Cyclone where you hang a left and take the ramp onto the boardwalk. There were tons of people cheering, but I sort of drowned them out. I had that feeling that I just needed this race to be over with. I ran up the ramp towards the boardwalk and noticed it was slippery from the sand and rain. I got onto the boardwalk and saw the finish line not too far away. I did the best that I could and hurled myself across the finish line. I didn't feel too well. I looked at my watch and noticed that I was a minute and half slower than my Staten Island Half time. I know I sound like a big baby right now but I was bit annoyed with my finish time. Somehow I really thought I would PR, so I was disappointed in myself. Hey at least I care about my time.
Tom wasn't too far behind me. We grabbed an apple and pretzels and followed the runners into the parking lot to wait for my brother and niece. There are SO MANY people at this event and we really should have agreed on a meeting place beforehand. I think the gear pickup area would have been a good idea.
After Party and Getting the Hell Out:
The stadium is set up for 2 things; a family meeting place and after party. They put letters along the top of the stadium so that you could meet your family and/or friends in specific letter zones. But I'll tell you what. It was absolute mayhem in there. I felt this overwhelming need to get out of there because it was too crowded and people were aimlessly wandering everywhere. You could purchase beer, food, pretzels, popcorn and other items, as long as you were willing to wait on very long lines. Local bands were there to entertain everyone.
By the time we found my brother waiting for us outside of the stadium, the lot was nearly empty. We walked back to the car, which isn't the shortest of walks (especially after running 13.1 miles with soaking wet socks and sneakers). Our feet were cold and wet and I could feel a blister or two getting ready to take shape.
We got back to the car and saw that the race was nearly over. There were only a handful of runners on the road. They finally opened the parking lot and allowed us to leave but that was a nightmare because everyone was racing to get out of the parking lot.
Anyway, I know I sound a bit negative about the Brooklyn Half and I don't mean to. I'm just giving you fair warning. If you take public transportation you'll more than likely avoid a lot of traffic issues. But if you drive and park your car at the aquarium, forget about getting out of there quickly. The smart people probably take the train.
My closing thought is this: if you can avoid get stressed over the logistics of packet pickup and if you can enjoy the race and not get worked up over the endless slow moving traffic afterwards, the Brooklyn Half is one of THE BEST half marathons out there. I promise you that! So rock on Brooklyn. I'll probably be an idiot and see you again next year ;)
Packet Pickup:
Packet Pickup was at Pier 2 in Brooklyn. Same place as last year, only this year it wasn't raining outside, so that was one positive. The traffic to get there? Just as awful as last year! Between the construction in Staten Island and the never ending bumper to bumper traffic in Brooklyn, it's enough to give you heart failure.
This year we found a parking garage about 1/2 mile away from the pier and walked over to the expo. The expo was small and included New Balance and other small vendors. Our race shirts were really nice this year. Black tech shirts with the Brooklyn Half logo. Since there wasn't much happening at the expo, we got our gear and made our way back to the car. Before leaving Brooklyn, Tom found a subway station and pre-purchased metro cards for Saturdays race.
Race Day:
Since my brother and niece were also running the Brooklyn Half, Tom and I had to leave New Jersey extra early to meet them in Staten Island. We woke up at 2:45 am and were out of the house by 3:40. We arrived at my brothers house by 4:30 am and were on our way to Coney Island by 4:50. The first wave of runners was scheduled to start at 7:00 am and the second wave was scheduled to start at 7:45 am. With over 26,000 runners, the parking lot fills up really fast so we wanted to be there as early as possible.
We parked the car at the Coney Island Aquarium and walked across the street to catch the Q train to Prospect Park. The subway arrived within 10 minutes and a huge group of runners got on board. We exited at the Prospect Park platform and made our way to the corrals which were set up near the Brooklyn Museum. Tom and I were in the first start wave but we decided to drop back to the first corral (corral 20) in wave 2. Once again NYRR had a million porta potties at the start line and I heard people commenting how great it is that they had that many toilets. The weather was cloudy and humid with some darker clouds on the horizon. It was difficult to tell whether or not it was going to rain on us. It felt like a 50/50 shot at that point.
We watched the first wave of runners take off and it was about 25 minutes before all of the runners cleared out. The race officials moved wave 2 up to the starting line, but we still had to wait another 20 minutes before it was our turn to go. At 7:45, the horn blew and we were off and running.
Running The Brooklyn Half:
We made our way down Washington Avenue to head towards Grand Army Plaza. I didn't notice this last year but the road heading towards the plaza has a slight upward grade and my legs felt it this year. I looked down at my watch and noticed I was running a 7:04 pace. Needless to say, I threw the brakes on immediately. We looped the statue at Grand Army Plaza and headed towards Prospect Park.
This year running through Prospect Park didn't feel as long or as hard as it did last year. I don't know why, but Prospect Park felt a bit shorter and easier to me. Trust me this is all in my head because the course was exactly the same this year as it was last year. Prospect Park is a bit hilly and you meet the longest climb at mile 5. I remembered this hill from last year and knew that I just needed to make it over the hill before my race could really begin. And then I felt a few rain drops. It felt really cool and refreshing at first, but the rain started picking up. Suddenly it was pouring on us. I noticed my body temperature cool down immediately and I decided to see if I could push myself a bit harder to take advantage of the cooling rain.
After exiting Prospect Park we headed towards Ocean Parkway. I tried to avoid the biggest puddles, but that was impossible. It just was what it was. Once I was on Ocean Parkway the rain stopped and I felt as though I was in a groove with my pace. The skies were cloudy but I'm not complaining because there's very little shade along Ocean Parkway. And sunshine is my kryptonite. NYRR set up water and Gatorade stations at every mile marker along Ocean Parkway. As always the volunteers were spectacular! Another reason why I love running this race.
There were a couple of minor grades on Ocean Parkway, but for the most part it's a straight shot to the Coney Island Boardwalk and the finish line. "Here come all the sexy runners", "Are you walking? There's no walking on MY corner", "Hurry up, Nathans is almost out of hot dogs". The comments and signs along the way made me laugh.
Every time I looked down at my watch, I noticed my pace was in the 7:43 to 7:45 range. I kept pushing myself the best that I could to hold that pace. One woman said "that's it, just keep running that nice easy pace". I wanted to strangle her because it did not feel like a nice easy pace!
I got to the end of Ocean Parkway and followed the runners towards the Coney Island Cyclone where you hang a left and take the ramp onto the boardwalk. There were tons of people cheering, but I sort of drowned them out. I had that feeling that I just needed this race to be over with. I ran up the ramp towards the boardwalk and noticed it was slippery from the sand and rain. I got onto the boardwalk and saw the finish line not too far away. I did the best that I could and hurled myself across the finish line. I didn't feel too well. I looked at my watch and noticed that I was a minute and half slower than my Staten Island Half time. I know I sound like a big baby right now but I was bit annoyed with my finish time. Somehow I really thought I would PR, so I was disappointed in myself. Hey at least I care about my time.
Tom wasn't too far behind me. We grabbed an apple and pretzels and followed the runners into the parking lot to wait for my brother and niece. There are SO MANY people at this event and we really should have agreed on a meeting place beforehand. I think the gear pickup area would have been a good idea.
After Party and Getting the Hell Out:
The stadium is set up for 2 things; a family meeting place and after party. They put letters along the top of the stadium so that you could meet your family and/or friends in specific letter zones. But I'll tell you what. It was absolute mayhem in there. I felt this overwhelming need to get out of there because it was too crowded and people were aimlessly wandering everywhere. You could purchase beer, food, pretzels, popcorn and other items, as long as you were willing to wait on very long lines. Local bands were there to entertain everyone.
By the time we found my brother waiting for us outside of the stadium, the lot was nearly empty. We walked back to the car, which isn't the shortest of walks (especially after running 13.1 miles with soaking wet socks and sneakers). Our feet were cold and wet and I could feel a blister or two getting ready to take shape.
We got back to the car and saw that the race was nearly over. There were only a handful of runners on the road. They finally opened the parking lot and allowed us to leave but that was a nightmare because everyone was racing to get out of the parking lot.
Anyway, I know I sound a bit negative about the Brooklyn Half and I don't mean to. I'm just giving you fair warning. If you take public transportation you'll more than likely avoid a lot of traffic issues. But if you drive and park your car at the aquarium, forget about getting out of there quickly. The smart people probably take the train.
My closing thought is this: if you can avoid get stressed over the logistics of packet pickup and if you can enjoy the race and not get worked up over the endless slow moving traffic afterwards, the Brooklyn Half is one of THE BEST half marathons out there. I promise you that! So rock on Brooklyn. I'll probably be an idiot and see you again next year ;)
Sunday, May 3, 2015
OVERCOMING MY OPEN WATER SWIM ANXIETY
Yesterday I had my first open water swim of the 2015 triathlon season. I went back to Lake Ockanickon in Medford NJ. From my home it takes me approximately 1 hr and 15 minutes to get there and I wanted to go by myself because I wasn't sure if I was going to go into panic attack mode again this year.
Well I did go into panic attack mode...sort of. It started in the car as I drove to the lake. I tried pinpointing what my fear was and I realized something stupid. I was having a panic attack over the mere thought of having a panic attack. It's like a dream within a dream (one of my favorite Edgar Allen Poe poems btw). I didn't want to go through that horrible feeling again this year.
A PEP TALK FROM COACH JASON:
ETA coach Jason was there on the dock when I arrived. I told him about my panic attacks every time I swim in open water and that I couldn't do one open water swim last year without having to flip onto my back. His advice? If I had a panic attack today, just accept it and flip onto my back. Since the course was set up as a big triangle this year (last year it was a straight shot out and back), he told me not to swim the entire course. Just go to the first buoy and back again until I got comfortable. I threw a bit of a protest because I knew I could swim the course, I just didn't understand why this happened to me. "Because we're land creatures and this feels foreign and weird to us". I told him I hated people who learned to swim as kids because they had no understanding of what it felt like. He told me he didn't learn to swim until adulthood and he could relate to my frustration. AKA, quit your bitching and swim.
A MAJOR BREAKTHROUGH AND UNDERSTANDING WHAT CAUSES MY PANIC ATTACKS:
I got my wetsuit on and headed towards the water. I knew it was going to be double the suck because the water was very cold (58-59 degrees). I swam towards the sand bank (which is where the swim course begins) and tried putting my face into the water. Holy mama it was REALLY COLD AND REALLY DARK. No, no, no, I am not going there. The fact that I was wearing brand new, heavily tinted goggles didn't help at all. Way to go rocket scientist! The water depth at the sand bank is shallow so I stood up and looked out at the first buoy. "It's even colder out there" a young guy said. I wanted to bail on the entire swim and go home, but I didn't drive that far to give up.
And then I went for it! I put my face into the water and began swimming towards the first buoy. That's when I discovered one of my biggest issues! I couldn't blow any air out of my lungs and this immediately threw me into complete panic attack.
SO WHY IS BLOWING AIR OUT OF YOU LUNGS THAT IMPORTANT?
Here is a summary of what would happen to me: My heart rate would spike significantly before I even entered the water and a high heart rate instantly causes breathing issues, even if you're standing still. Then I would get into the water and my heart rate would spike again from sensory overload of everything happening at once around me. I truly believe these quick and constant heart rate spikes are what causes people to have a heart attack during the swim portion of a triathlon. They probably have an underlying heart condition that they are unaware of and the constant spiking of the heart rate triggers the heart attack.
So there I am in the water with a super high heart rate and I haven't even started swimming yet. I put my face down to swim and I do THE WORST THING POSSIBLE...I hold my breath!!! A super high heart rate AND holding your breath is a really bad combination! But I don't hold my breath on purpose. It happens because my heart rate and sensory issues are in complete overload and that overload causes me to hold my breath. But now I've identified the problem.
HOW I OVERCAME AND SWAM WITHOUT HAVING A PANICK ATTACK...FINALLY!
I decided to head towards the first buoy to see if I could overcome panic mode. I put my face in the water and barely blew any air out. I turned to take air in, but I couldn't breathe because my lungs were still filled. Instead of stopping and flipping on to my back as I would do the past, I immediately put my face back in the water and continued swimming. On my second attempt, I blew a little bit of air out and got a little bit of air in. I immediately put my face back in for round three. Round three I blew a bit more air out and was able to get a bit more air in, but not enough. I went for the fourth round. On the fourth attempt I finally blew a lot of air out and was able to get a decent amount of fresh air back into my lungs. When I was able to blow a lot of air out, I felt my body instantly relax. So there it was...4 attempts to blow air out and get fresh air in. I didn't worry about technique at that moment. In fact I thought "swim shitty, swim slowly". I just wanted to swim slowly and get my heart rate down and my breathing under control. I learned that the first several strokes (probably the first 25 yards) are the hardest but you have to stick with it. If you bail out too soon and flip on to your back after one or two attempts to get air, you start the process all over again.
And that was my biggest problem last year. I would only give myself 2 attempts to get air before I flipped onto my back. This year I decided I would give myself 6 attempts in a row. If I didn't get air by the 6th attempt, then would I allow myself to flip onto my back. But that never happened. It took me 4 attempts to get everything to click into place.
By the time I made it to the first buoy my heart rate was close to being normal and I felt as though I had a good breathing pattern. The longer I swam, the better everything got. I was able to complete 3 laps of the entire course without ever having to flip on to my back. And let me tell you that was a great confidence booster! I was freezing cold by the time I got out of the lake and my fingers and toes were numb, but I was elated at my progress.
Did I still feel a bit freaked out with my face in the dark water? Yes, but only for the first 50 yards or so. Am I saying that I'm 100% over my fear? Absolutely no. But I do feel better having some understanding of what's happening to me physically when I swim in open water. I know I have to focus on 3 key things: blowing air out to get fresh air in, establishing a good breathing pattern and swimming slowly early on to get my heart rate down. Plus I can't bail out if I'm unable to get air on the first or second attempt, I have to give it several attempts in a row. I also found that early on in the swim, I purposely over-rotated, just to give myself an extra second or two of having my face out of the water. Once I was comfortable, I tried not to over-rotate because it only slows you down.
So there you have it. Try focusing on those 3 critical components and don't bail out too soon. If it helps, have a friend swim next to you just so know someone is close by and watching. Hopefully you too will slay the open water swim dragon. Once you understand how mental fear affects you physically, it gets easier. I swear it does.
Well I did go into panic attack mode...sort of. It started in the car as I drove to the lake. I tried pinpointing what my fear was and I realized something stupid. I was having a panic attack over the mere thought of having a panic attack. It's like a dream within a dream (one of my favorite Edgar Allen Poe poems btw). I didn't want to go through that horrible feeling again this year.
A PEP TALK FROM COACH JASON:
ETA coach Jason was there on the dock when I arrived. I told him about my panic attacks every time I swim in open water and that I couldn't do one open water swim last year without having to flip onto my back. His advice? If I had a panic attack today, just accept it and flip onto my back. Since the course was set up as a big triangle this year (last year it was a straight shot out and back), he told me not to swim the entire course. Just go to the first buoy and back again until I got comfortable. I threw a bit of a protest because I knew I could swim the course, I just didn't understand why this happened to me. "Because we're land creatures and this feels foreign and weird to us". I told him I hated people who learned to swim as kids because they had no understanding of what it felt like. He told me he didn't learn to swim until adulthood and he could relate to my frustration. AKA, quit your bitching and swim.
A MAJOR BREAKTHROUGH AND UNDERSTANDING WHAT CAUSES MY PANIC ATTACKS:
I got my wetsuit on and headed towards the water. I knew it was going to be double the suck because the water was very cold (58-59 degrees). I swam towards the sand bank (which is where the swim course begins) and tried putting my face into the water. Holy mama it was REALLY COLD AND REALLY DARK. No, no, no, I am not going there. The fact that I was wearing brand new, heavily tinted goggles didn't help at all. Way to go rocket scientist! The water depth at the sand bank is shallow so I stood up and looked out at the first buoy. "It's even colder out there" a young guy said. I wanted to bail on the entire swim and go home, but I didn't drive that far to give up.
And then I went for it! I put my face into the water and began swimming towards the first buoy. That's when I discovered one of my biggest issues! I couldn't blow any air out of my lungs and this immediately threw me into complete panic attack.
SO WHY IS BLOWING AIR OUT OF YOU LUNGS THAT IMPORTANT?
Here is a summary of what would happen to me: My heart rate would spike significantly before I even entered the water and a high heart rate instantly causes breathing issues, even if you're standing still. Then I would get into the water and my heart rate would spike again from sensory overload of everything happening at once around me. I truly believe these quick and constant heart rate spikes are what causes people to have a heart attack during the swim portion of a triathlon. They probably have an underlying heart condition that they are unaware of and the constant spiking of the heart rate triggers the heart attack.
So there I am in the water with a super high heart rate and I haven't even started swimming yet. I put my face down to swim and I do THE WORST THING POSSIBLE...I hold my breath!!! A super high heart rate AND holding your breath is a really bad combination! But I don't hold my breath on purpose. It happens because my heart rate and sensory issues are in complete overload and that overload causes me to hold my breath. But now I've identified the problem.
HOW I OVERCAME AND SWAM WITHOUT HAVING A PANICK ATTACK...FINALLY!
I decided to head towards the first buoy to see if I could overcome panic mode. I put my face in the water and barely blew any air out. I turned to take air in, but I couldn't breathe because my lungs were still filled. Instead of stopping and flipping on to my back as I would do the past, I immediately put my face back in the water and continued swimming. On my second attempt, I blew a little bit of air out and got a little bit of air in. I immediately put my face back in for round three. Round three I blew a bit more air out and was able to get a bit more air in, but not enough. I went for the fourth round. On the fourth attempt I finally blew a lot of air out and was able to get a decent amount of fresh air back into my lungs. When I was able to blow a lot of air out, I felt my body instantly relax. So there it was...4 attempts to blow air out and get fresh air in. I didn't worry about technique at that moment. In fact I thought "swim shitty, swim slowly". I just wanted to swim slowly and get my heart rate down and my breathing under control. I learned that the first several strokes (probably the first 25 yards) are the hardest but you have to stick with it. If you bail out too soon and flip on to your back after one or two attempts to get air, you start the process all over again.
And that was my biggest problem last year. I would only give myself 2 attempts to get air before I flipped onto my back. This year I decided I would give myself 6 attempts in a row. If I didn't get air by the 6th attempt, then would I allow myself to flip onto my back. But that never happened. It took me 4 attempts to get everything to click into place.
By the time I made it to the first buoy my heart rate was close to being normal and I felt as though I had a good breathing pattern. The longer I swam, the better everything got. I was able to complete 3 laps of the entire course without ever having to flip on to my back. And let me tell you that was a great confidence booster! I was freezing cold by the time I got out of the lake and my fingers and toes were numb, but I was elated at my progress.
Did I still feel a bit freaked out with my face in the dark water? Yes, but only for the first 50 yards or so. Am I saying that I'm 100% over my fear? Absolutely no. But I do feel better having some understanding of what's happening to me physically when I swim in open water. I know I have to focus on 3 key things: blowing air out to get fresh air in, establishing a good breathing pattern and swimming slowly early on to get my heart rate down. Plus I can't bail out if I'm unable to get air on the first or second attempt, I have to give it several attempts in a row. I also found that early on in the swim, I purposely over-rotated, just to give myself an extra second or two of having my face out of the water. Once I was comfortable, I tried not to over-rotate because it only slows you down.
So there you have it. Try focusing on those 3 critical components and don't bail out too soon. If it helps, have a friend swim next to you just so know someone is close by and watching. Hopefully you too will slay the open water swim dragon. Once you understand how mental fear affects you physically, it gets easier. I swear it does.
Friday, May 1, 2015
DEEP TUFTED UPHOLSTERED HEADBOARD
It all started here at the Fabric Warehouse in Rahway NJ. I chose an off white linen fabric with a slight sheen to it. I purchased 3 yards of
fabric, 9 feet of decorator foam (it was cheaper than upholstery foam), 3 yards of batting and 2 yards of black fabric (for the back of the board). Do NOT cheap out on the batting because the batting makes a big difference!
Next stop was at my local lumber yard where I purchased a 4'x8' piece of plywood that was a 1/2 inch thick. I measured the bed frame from side to side (queen size frame) and it measured 60 inches across. Using a circular saw, I cut the plywood down to 60 inches wide by 38 inches high. I own a lot of power tools, I know how to use them and I'm not afraid to use them. In fact, I love my power tools.
Next it was time to put the foam on. I used a spray adhesive and sprayed both the board and foam. I laid the foam over the board and pressed down until it stuck. Since I didn't have a reciprocating saw, I used an electric knife (you know the one that you use to cut your Thanksgiving turkey) and cut the excess foam off around the edges. It worked like a charm, but don't tell anyone that I used a turkey knife. It'll be our secret.
needle, I came up from the bottom of the board and poked the needle straight through the foam and marked the spot using a sharpie.
Once I had all of the holes marked, it was time to cut the holes out using a 1 1/4 inch hole cutter. Be very careful here that you put the center of the drill-bit directly on the dot and drill straight down...do not slant the drill bit. You want straight and even foam holes. This part can be tricky so take your time.
After you cut all of the holes out, your board will look similar to the picture below. You can already see the diamond pattern taking shape. At this point, I moved everything out the basement and upstairs because I didn't want to get my fabric dirty. I'm not going to lie, my basement is in need of a good cleaning. I laid the batting over the foam (don't glue the batting) and made sure I had excess batting hanging off all of the edges. I snipped the batting over each hole so that the button would go in a bit easier.
And here is where things get tricky, tricky. You have to cut the fabric down to proper size for your board. If you don't know the professional way to line up and cut fabric, find an online tutorial. Fabric should always be folded in half from selvage to selvage and cut as straight as possible. Since my board was 38" high (top to bottom) and the decorator fabric was 60" wide, I didn't need to cut the width of the fabric. I did need to cut the length of the fabric because it was much too long from side to side. So my board was 60 inches from side to side, plus I added an extra 16 inches of fabric on each side. So the math went like this: My board was 60 inches (from side to side) plus I wanted to add 16" to each side. I cut the fabric length to 92 inches (60"+16"+16"=92" cut length). Do you follow me?
With the fabric folded from selvage to selvage, I folded the fabric again from top to bottom. This method found center of the fabric. I made a very faint pencil mark in the center of the fabric so that I would know exactly where the center was. Make sure you mark the WRONG side of your fabric, not the good side! Next I drew a very faint straight line going from side to side on the back side of the fabric. This line would be my guide for my center row of buttons. Now I had to find the center of the board (faintly mark it) and match the center of the fabric to the center of the board. I made sure my pencil line went straight across the middle row of button holes (see photo above). I also kept the center of my fabric lined up with the center of my board. Carefully open the fabric up and make sure your pencil line is correctly lined up with the middle row of buttons. This is important stuff here. Next, I threaded all of my buttons using Roman Shade cording
instead of upholstery thread. It worked out great!
Now you come to the place where you get to put your upholstering skills to the ultimate test: If you have a button hole at the center of your board, start there. If you don't have a button hole in the center (which I did not), choose a button hole next to the center. I started with the button hole to the left of center. Using your index finger, push the fabric straight down and into the hole until you feel your fingertip touch the board underneath. The first button is the most crucial. Now double check that your center line is still going straight through the middle row. Adjust the fabric if you need to. If for any reason your fabric got wonky, take it out, re-center it and try again. It is super important that your pencil line remains straight through the middle row of buttons. After you have the fabric in the hole and your line is still going straight from side to side, use your upholstery needle to pull your first button through. Make sure you push the button as deep as possible, pull the cord really tight from underneath and staple the cord to hold the button in place. A pneumatic stapler is the way to go here because a manual stapler does not hold the cord down as tightly.
Recheck that your pencil line is still straight. If it is, go to the next button hole located at the right of center. Pull the fabric from the stapled button hole towards the right button hole and get the fabric taut, but not ridiculously taut. LOOK AT THE GRAIN OF YOUR FABRIC AND MAKE SURE THE GRAIN IS GOING STRAIGHT FROM ONE BUTTON HOLE TO THE NEXT. This is THE big trick to keeping your upholstery project looking beautiful. No matter what direction you're working in, you must always keep the fabric grain straight!!! If you don't keep the grain straight, your pleats will get wonky looking. Pull the fabric tight from button hole to button hole, BUT NOT RIDICULOUSLY TIGHT. If I could change one thing, I would not pull the fabric as tight as I did from hole to hole. I think I went a bit overboard here with the tightness. When everything looks good, put the next button in and staple it. Continue doing this for the entire middle row of buttons (fabric grain straight, pull fabric tight but not ridiculously tight, push the button all the way down and staple).
Once you get the entire middle row done, you can work on the next row down. On all of the other row you will not staple the buttons one by one as you put them in. At this point, you're going to get the entire row of buttons in first, then go back and staple them. Fix your pleats as you work, making sure all of your pleats fold downwards. Do every row of buttons this way and neatly wrap the fabric around the back. Staple, staple, staple. Don't be cheap with the staples. The above photo shows what the back of my board looked like when all of the buttons were in. After I finished stapling everything in the back, I covered the board with black fabric. I zig zagged the edges of the black fabric so that it didn't fray.
Next I cut 1 inch thick pine boards down so that I could make legs for my headboard. I used left over fabric from my headboard and made sleeves to cover the legs. I attached a long and short piece together using metal plates and screws. Below I've added some photos of what the board looked like from the back and which screws I used to attach the legs to the board. I pre-drilled the holes for the screws because pine is tough to get through. Finally, I attached the headboard to the bedframe using machine bolt
screws.
If you're a handy DIY'er you'll have fun with this project. I estimated that the total cost came to $167. Yes, I kept tabs. Cost breakdown: plywood $20, decorator foam and batting $65, fabric $18, spray adhesive $12, upholstery needle and cording $10, 1 inch crystal buttons $20 (bought on Amazon), nuts bolts and screws $16, black fabric for backing $6. If I can find more of this fabric at the warehouse I'd like to make a matching storage trunk. But that will be for a future project because this triathlete is missing her swim, bike, run days.
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